Introspection

Introspection, by Jef Paeper (c)

Waves
Rising and falling
endlessly
For days and nights
with no sun and no stars
I drink this sea
I inhale memories
Motionless
over the remnants of love 
white ash
and traces of broken time
your smile
my dancing eyes
You left behind
your false "true" self
I kept only pieces of my heart
and thin paper hopes
Hard to hold you
hard to imagine your face
so many wounds
too little light
as the night walks in
with silent steps


I tried...
I tried...
I tried... 
Shall I breathe? Shall I open my eyes?
The void. A vertigo love. 


To have and to have not.
Forgive me,
for not forgiving you yet...