Friday, August 31, 2012

Full Moon.

The bar is small, quiet and melancholy. She sits on the bench having her vodka lemon, her ...fourth, fifth? She lost count. They are playing the blues tonight. It suits her mood perfectly. Her thoughts travel hopping upon every note, her harmonic solitude drips inside her half empty glass. Life sucks. She's been there before. Too many times. She twists and turns a lock of her black hair, absentminded. She only cares about her new lover... He probably isnt interested in her...Sporadic talking on the phone, flirtings and then he disappears for days... She wants to tell him he is the only one she needs. The only one she wants to know better and deeper. "He knows that, stupid woman", her mind answers. "If he wants you, where is he now?...". "You are right, as always..." she admits as she takes the last sip of the bitter boose down her throat. A guy next to her offers to buy her another drink. She smiles, dizzy "No, thanks". He smiles back, lowering his head. "Perhaps another time, then..." he says. "Perhaps", she answers back as she steps down her stool. She is desperate for some fresh air, if there is any. Full Moon  tonight. Every body gets drunk and horny...

She steps outside into the bottomless night. City sounds, noise, stench. The heat is growing. She lifts her shoulders and takes the lonely way back home. Around the corner, some unknown man tries to pick her up. "He thinks am a hooker", she mumbles to herself. Her black top and short red skirt and high heels surely must have given him that stupid impression. For a moment she hesitates...Her mind is playing games, all kinds... She is half drunk, she can't see his face clearly...He is in the shadows, but his voice is soft and almost ordering her to follow...Her wounded mind plays all sorts of tricks tonight...Maybe its the full moon, she thinks. For one split of a second, her heart starts to pump blood like crazy. Fear embraces her with its black wings. The unknown man gets his answer. "Follow me..." and she follows. Tonight her heart  can open the gates of Hell. She wants to be consumed. She goes quietly with him. Later on, she will tell him she's not who he thinks she is, and will turn away and leave. Her body starts to get excited, betraying her mind. How can this be?...

The alley is dark and moist. The heat almost touchable. She feels her skin wet . He leads her. Against the dirty wall at the back side of an old cafe, maybe... She can't tell. The darkness enters her heart, body, soul. But she doesn't hesitate. She will go till the end. The new lover she wants, he isn't interested in her, anyway...Her old lover now feels as good as dead. This man tonight, is the only man she wants. Now. Here. Her hands sweat. She tries to wipe them behind her back. He senses her tremor...His hand pulls her close. She can feel his arousement as his breathing becomes faster. His scent, a mixture of wood and soil and citrus. So intoxicating. He is touching her throat, one long caress down to the edge of her breasts... For one second, she feels she wants to fall down. Her legs tired from the heels, but the need in her starts to unfold. Her mind, a lake of dark water. He takes her hand and shows her his wanting. He doesn't speak. She feels his breath heavy against her lips. The touch shakes her . All her senses open widely into the night. She knows its inevitable, she has chosen it...

His fingers, knowing, raise her skirt. Find her secret place. Explore. She bites her lips. He doesn't kiss, she doesnt either. She follows with her every thought. "Hookers dont enjoy these things," her inner voice says laughing... "Turn", he orders. She obeys. The cool wall against her breasts and palms and face feels a bit soothing to her flame. Suddenly he stops. Soon she is exposed under his look.  His manhood finds her through her wet panties... The power of him  overwhelms her. Her body melts, disolves into thousands of prisms. "Scream", he whispers to her ear. Her mind all a blur. "Scream", he insinsts, commands her. She lets the air through her lungs to find its way high in her throat, then out of her lips a long scream, a long sigh, strong, as he moves into her violently, holding her tight on to him.
She finds herself floating into a sea of sinful nirvana. "What is all this?", the voice in her head..."What?...How?..." Waves come and go. Her body obeys its nature. The proof of his desire feels strangely warm and soothing. He still holds her tight. The Tide of the Blood rises, falls, one thousand times...

"I exceeded  the limits. I did it. Now am on the dark side of my road", she talks to her self. She doesn't care anymore for her nakedness. She doesn't care anymore for the new lover who isn't interested in her, anyway... She feels altered. Transformed. Free.
The unknown man turns her around, she stands facing him. The moment of Truth...She can't look at him, so she stares at her high heels. "Just to let you know, am not a hooker...."
"I know", his voice hits her ears like a fierce night wind. The Full moon is hanging over them lighting untold passions and desires. Time stands. Full stop.
Her mind starts to analyse his words. "I know..."
He steps out of the darkness, exposing his countenance under the bright moonlight.
He takes her face into his palms and turns her chin up, his eyes into hers.
The recognition comes to her  like  a crush over a rocky shore.
"You....." "Yes"
"I thought..You were delaying to answer my calls, messages...You disappeared for days, I thought..."
"Shhhhh.... You talk too much,  baby..."
"I thought you werent interested in me"... she says blushing...her words drown her surprise, her excitement still holds her motionless in front of him.
"Slowly, so slowly/ the unripe fruit / becomes honey dripping,", he quotes softly kissing her lips, his velvet voice reaching to the very core of her heart.
She hears the Full Moon above laughing at her...

Thursday, August 23, 2012

The Paradox Inferno

Nude Light Painting | Light Painting by Patrick Rochon http://goo.gl/u2uQ9



















Consumed, burned to the bone, erased
I lose myself into the paradox inferno of your love
slowly, painfully, in wanting craze
you mark your way upon the map of my hungry skin
i am your terra incognita
i am your lost destination
how you take my life sweetly
kissing licking biting my wounds
finding your way into my soul
finding your way into my shadowed heart
i close my eyes
drinking your essence
an elixir of lust
grows the fire within me
the flames of your wicked love
your lips know the way to melt my bones 
to liquefy my wanting
your fingers make the stars ache with my desire
me, a fallen angel
i follow where you lead
i know i will be lost into the fiery rainbows in your eyes
but how can my heart now ever miss the cursed paradise?...

oh i am in hell
i am a happy sinner
i face my  destiny 
to burn, 
to burn eternally
into the paradox inferno
of your love....

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Promenade

Walking Alone http://goo.gl/qWG1O
she walks invading into the afternoon
the streets devour her every step
Colourful crowds pass before her eyes in rainbows
  
a mirage of her pain glows reversed on the face of a stranger
vagabond time bends doing her a favor
her past meets her present with a gesture of grace
over the corner, she stops at the red light
and then she walks again, and walks 
for hours, out of space
with a cloud in her heart
and a question mark in her eyes
almost forgoten by her life
almost consumed by this mad  voracious world...


Thursday, August 9, 2012

I want you

Passion I, at   DEOVEND http://tinyurl.com/c77l8n3


I want you to silence my lips
with violent kisses
i want you to touch my every scar with your tongue
like a pilgrim of my pain, ancient and wild
i want you to whisper to my ear a song
long and terrifying and beautiful
as my blood starts to flow in your rythm
a river of burning love

i want you to sign accros my skin
the shining truth of your wanting
my hands, my belly, my thighs be yours
to melt them into a mould of lust

i want your legs entwined with mine
like twin pilars of a secret temple
i want you to plant on my flesh
strawberries that explode when you move inside me
as you drink my sugared sweet sighs
oh i can die, then
baptized into your glorious passion

i want you to bite my exquisite abandon
as we fly high being almost transparent with light
that ultimate moment
i want you to drown me with your essence
only that i can drift, helpless, on your shore
and with a deep immaculate kiss
 live again....






Morning



warm and soft kisses
the breaking of a new day
feeling you in me
all my senses absorb you
half asleep, half awaken 



Fandango

Spanish guitar, by Bogdan Zagan at  http://tinyurl.com/bwbzg8h


"The ways of the heart
lead only to you
your charcoal eyes
steal the light of the moon
my heart knows no other
my heart knows no other
the ways of my heart
lead only to you"

He holds the guitar
like he holded, once,  her body
pulling her strings
a jasmin perfumed memory
her lips
her eyes
he holds the guitar
like he holded  her body
shoulders, a slender waist,
thighs
and a rose resting between her naked breasts
a time long forgoten
a dream of love
his solitude dances with every chord
striking a note
and then another
forming the curves of her in stars
how much he wants her still
her perfume slips through his fingers
a shadow of black hair upon his chest
and the longing gets deeper and deeper
every night
he holds the guitar like, once, he holded her body
he strikes a note
and then another
on and on in the painful fandango
under the Andalusian moon